Hmmm,, its been ages
See; this is supposed to be a happy blog and it became a list of tragedies so, why take the time to just write it here...
Anyway nobody ever reads this blog, except for the spam machines, and me hahaha
So whats up in my life...
My brother was finally able to get his right eye transplant, i was his personal nurse,,, and we both ended in the hospital,, hahahaha, so he couldn't take the load of the wait and post transplant difficulties and ended up in crisis. Me?. well i couldn't take the load of slowly noticing the changes and deterioration in his health along with the fact that i had some kind of depression going on.
So one night he ended up in the hospital, next day when i went to the same hospital to take his things and belongings They didn't let me out... so I was hospitalized due severe depression for 4 days. The only good result is ,,, yep, i lost 7 Kg because of the depression, I just stopped eating for a long time as I couldn't keep anything in my stomach.
3 months later, I am considerably better, i am still taking medicine, it kind of helps, but if i forget to take it, It totally shows. It is not an addictive medicine but it seems I have to take it to keep my good spirits.
I decided not to go back to ships life, I need time for me, my brother is also going into surgery in august again, soo he will need us family to be here ( hope we don't go hospital crazy again). I am currently looking for a job,, the tedious work of trying to belong to an industry that it is enclosed only to the people with contacts,, but I will make my way like a worm eating and eating flesh until I am under its skin...
Friendzone its no so bad, its comfy and easy to go along , sad though sometimes...
Planning on my new bike as soon as I get my new job, cant hardly wait, also been learning how to drive and started dreaming with a renault 4,,, yes a RENAULT 4 ,,, I love that car, and I want to paint it with polka dots.. hahahaha.
Anyway that is life.
As allways something for the road
This photo
and This song
See; this is supposed to be a happy blog and it became a list of tragedies so, why take the time to just write it here...
Anyway nobody ever reads this blog, except for the spam machines, and me hahaha
So whats up in my life...
My brother was finally able to get his right eye transplant, i was his personal nurse,,, and we both ended in the hospital,, hahahaha, so he couldn't take the load of the wait and post transplant difficulties and ended up in crisis. Me?. well i couldn't take the load of slowly noticing the changes and deterioration in his health along with the fact that i had some kind of depression going on.
So one night he ended up in the hospital, next day when i went to the same hospital to take his things and belongings They didn't let me out... so I was hospitalized due severe depression for 4 days. The only good result is ,,, yep, i lost 7 Kg because of the depression, I just stopped eating for a long time as I couldn't keep anything in my stomach.
3 months later, I am considerably better, i am still taking medicine, it kind of helps, but if i forget to take it, It totally shows. It is not an addictive medicine but it seems I have to take it to keep my good spirits.
I decided not to go back to ships life, I need time for me, my brother is also going into surgery in august again, soo he will need us family to be here ( hope we don't go hospital crazy again). I am currently looking for a job,, the tedious work of trying to belong to an industry that it is enclosed only to the people with contacts,, but I will make my way like a worm eating and eating flesh until I am under its skin...
Friendzone its no so bad, its comfy and easy to go along , sad though sometimes...
Planning on my new bike as soon as I get my new job, cant hardly wait, also been learning how to drive and started dreaming with a renault 4,,, yes a RENAULT 4 ,,, I love that car, and I want to paint it with polka dots.. hahahaha.
Anyway that is life.
As allways something for the road
This photo
and This song
